"and even though Ill never know whats up ahead, im never letting go!"

well this is it....ive said goodbye to my friends and family, cried a lot, and had a pretty good day. and 2morrow is one of the days i have been dreaming about for just about my entire life... Alex and I are going to drive to drive off and go to BYU. it honestly felt like this day would never come.
this situation is a little terrifying...im about to go to a place where I dont know very many people, take difficult classes and do things i have never done before. but the scariest part is just the change. because I know that nothing is ever going to be the same again, especially my relationships with people
but with all that said im just so excited to go. this is where I get to meet new people, have awesome experiences, and for me, most importantly, I get to have experiences that help me decide what I am passionate about and will ultimately change the course of my life. I mean who knows what will happen, I could continue with this theater route that I'm on, which in itself will have many choices and opportunities, but for all I know I could change my mind down the road and go the complete opposite direction...but whatever happens it will be my decision, which is just so exciting to think about! but no matter what happens to me or where i go in my life, lodi/stockton will always be home. I love it here, yeah its a little boring here, its not some huge exciting city, but so many of the people I love are here, Im going to miss it
well thats enough for tonight. its time to go to sleep for the last time in a while in my own room...tomorrow is going to be the start of an amazing adventure